Dancing Thru Life

09:01 pm: My newspaper finally caused a scandal...
   hooray

09:20 pm:

I think I need to get back to writing.  So here goes nothing, its been years since I've written anything other than an essay or newspaper column. 

 

08:07 am: So I pierced my nose, a move described as sexy (Grant) and badass (Liz) but which just makes me happy. The piercer laughed at me when I said this would qualify me as a wild child in my parent's eyes, which is doesnt actually. Its just happy.

07:51 pm: Is it legal to postpone a birthday? To just wake up and say "no, i don't feel like turning 18 today. maybe next week." and send out little notes to every fucking person who is supposed to care about you that say something like:
To whom it may concern: Due to the enormous amounts of drama that have ruined the week, Christina has decided to postpone her birthday until you can all fucking get along, suck it up, and put your petty selfishness behind you for 3 fucking hours and actually attend a party that is supposed to be about Christina and the fact that she's turning 18, instead of explaining why you can't possibly be there because such-and-such will be there too. Thank you, The Management.
If I ever do have a party, I may just pull out pin-the-tail-on-the-donkey and little toy whistles, since that about how mature everyone is managing to be. Grf.

12:46 am: fuck it. I am never ever either drinking or pmsing again, if that gives people (boys) reason not to take my being upset seriously.

04:56 pm: Ooh!
why didn't it work? forget it all, next time i'll get someone to do it for me.

10:46 pm: Today...
woke up
fought w/parents
went to school. one more semester.
flirted w/sexy guy
dealt w/politics
saw trainer, iced and taped. grrf.
fought with sister
soccer
broke tiffany keychain
fought with dad
kick-ass dance and be crazy pasta party with new people in the guesthouse. includes silly string.
destroy and burn things w/normal guesthouse people. realize need to spend more time w/happy people.
peer pressure, what a fucking not-even-an-excuse, destroy something can never get back. want back.
fough with dad
snapped at friend
made up w/friend, snap at other friend.
decide to scarlett o'hara it up:
tommorow is, quite thankfully, another day

02:17 pm: I'm declaring today Opposable Thumb Appreciation Day- its nearly impossible to do anything useful w/out your thumbs. I have a newfound appreciation for my right thumb as I attempt to eat w/a fork, write, blow dry and straighten my hair, do buttons, open doors, and drive w/out it. Its just sprained, but still, you don't realize how much you use it. Maybe I'll train myself to be ambidextrous.

05:59 pm: OMG I am going to Brown!

12:10 am: insanity prevails
my friends and i are only truly happy when we're doing something really stupid. today's happiness-bringing event was jumping into the pool. at night. in 30 degree weather, w/out a change of clothes nearby. it was insane (i'm still cold) and yet rather bonding. much fun. we also went to see Saw II, which was brilliant, in a twisted, insane way. happy night.

03:00 pm: the astros are up 3-1, and I have tickets for Game 5!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

life is happy.

04:08 pm: Katie: "You're a horrible driver"
Me: "I haven't hit anything yet though."
Katie: "And you still don't believe in God?"

05:38 pm: AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I dislike people who don't come out and say what bothers them, but instead just go Jab, Jab with little jokes and snarky comments until you just feel like you are bleeding to death but can't complain about it b/c nothing has really happened.
However, I love Elise, and it was so happy today to see her happy, unstressed, and beautiful...even tho i was being attacked by fireants and trying to get out a locked door at the time.

10:13 pm:  Good evening.  My name is Christina.  Christina, like Christian w/ the last 2 letters switched, meaning follower of Christ, though I'm not.  There are many popular derivatives, Xina, Tina, Chris, Chrissy for idiots, etc, but the base remains Christina, a good (though common) name I am proud to call my own.  I see myself as a Christina and a Christina I will remain.  Mary, though on my birth certifiicate, is not my name, and I will not willingly answer to it no matter how many time my english teacher tries to force me too.  Stubbe is my surname, declaring me a member of a family I don't wholly respect and often attempt to avoid seeing.  It sounds cute occasionally, but not for everyday use, and it saddens me that I became a Stubbe before a Christina when I moved here, and now I am in what seems like a constant fight for my name, which is a rather important part of my identity.  I rather like the name Christina anyway.  That is all.    

afterthought: i'm not sure why this has become an issue w/me all of the sudden.

08:11 pm: So after the JSA thing yesterday (which was delighful and fun. it was great seeing everyone, and all the politic bullshit really invigorates me, which prolly isn't a good thing. Joe the sexist pig really did piss me off with his power plays, tho) a bunch of us jumped into Austin's cold mostly natural spring, Barton Springs. I went in dress pants (polyester and old, so it was ok) and had my debit card in my pocket. Oops. Luckily it still works, tho the cashier at the gas station thought i was crazy when I asked him if he could swipe it to make it was ok.
All the drama floating around from start-of-school stress plus everything else is beginning to wear on me tho. Who's mad at who, traffic tickets, worrying about offending people at board meetings...it has to stop. I'm ready for everything to settle in and be happy so I can concentrate on fun stuff like my homecoming dress and senior pix. :)

01:07 pm: This just doesn't work...
"Having an extramarital affair can be deemed adultery and a violation of the Uniform Code of Military Justice. But such cases rarely go to court-martial and usually end in administrative punishment such as a letter of reprimand, according to military lawyers. Relieving a general of his command amid such allegations is extremely unusual, especially given that he was about to retire.

The Army has been hurt over the past year by detainee-abuse cases and has been accused of not going after top officers allegedly involved in such abuse. Army officials said relieving Byrnes was meant to show the public that the service takes issues of integrity seriously." - Washington Post

04:07 pm: Got my license, didn't even have to take a written test, drove myself to Staples to mail Liz's late package, so nervous about driving I forgot to bring her address. Didn't kill anyone. But sorry, Liz, I love you and I'll mail it tomorrow.

12:30 pm: So 2 days before I go to get my license (yeah!) I discover why Texas drivers suck: parents can waive the driving test for their kids...Sweet for me, but kinda scary if you think about it.

12:29 pm: thanks to a price raise of 500 dollars, there will be no Mexico MUN trip
thanks to an evil ebay dealer who sold me a broken toy, there will be no sega
and my uncle, who has a 2 year old, is getting divorced. which is a shame, since his wife was nana-approved. oops.
lovely day, indeed

on the bright side, Laurie King has a new book in my favorite series of all times, i have a car tho no license, and kittenhead has forgiven me (finally)

02:26 am: amazing, isn't it, the power of the written word?